You know what my problem is? Never completing anything all the way, by “myself”..!!..!!
THAT'S MY PROBLEM!
I guess its deeply rooted in me, since my childhood or something..
I’ve never completed my notes, always had to copy ‘em “later” or ask Daddy for photocopying!! And you know why, ‘cuz I write slowly and neatly trying to be perfect!! ‘cuz my mom wants me to be so!!
It’s so complicated!!
It’s not the “incomplete notebook” or the “incomplete homework”, or “studying in the last minute” before getting into the examination hall, or "handing in my project" after the deadline with Rubzy's help!!!!!!! It’s much more than that.. & NOW, It’s transformed to relationships and more!!
I’m not perfect, and no one is, but I need that perfect someone for me.. Guess it’s too much to ask!!
Anyhow, I’m quitting my job!! Dunno if that’s related, but guess this explains something too..
Dunno if THIS (The Relative Best) is related but it made sense to me..SOMEHOW!
SOS..I need HELP!
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Friday, November 17, 2006
I was humiliated, betrayed, shocked, betrayed again, scared, hurt, terrified, himiliated again, oppressed, hurt again..
And the worst part was that, I couldn't sleep; as I couldn't breathe!!
You know when this inner part of your chest aches,
That part right in the middle of your shaking soul?
You know when your pillow sinks in tears,
Salty tears that wont stop flowing for long?
And you tell yourself, the sun will shine,
But it takes so long, that you think it never will!
And you wait for the world to change,
But it ends up not moving an inch?!
Oh Allah help me now,
To change this world to a better one.
I don't mind it happenning to me,
As long as I'm not causing it to someone else!
Wallahi it was so unfair!
But thank God this injustice happened to me, and not me causing it to anyone else..
"Life has a way of sorting things out… a helping hand there, a slap in the face here… and you are still on track–tipping, hands stretched out with eyes squeezed–but u r there, still somewhere between the tracks, yeah u r there. Everybody is I figure. I know I am. I feel that way. But the enemy of Best is Good, and u can live your whole life just tip-toeing andin the end all you have is an ache in the arms and a autobiography that could pass for a tragedy. As one trapeze artist said to another, “Get a grip”…and yes, getting a grip is that important....."
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Sunday, November 05, 2006
I know I know... Not every apple has the same taste, and not every rose smells the same... Everything is unique in its own way... But I still don't get it!! Why do people hang CDs in their cars?!?!?!?!?!?!?! You know, where the rear mirror is!