Tuesday, November 21, 2006


You know what my problem is? Never completing anything all the way, by “myself”..!!..!!
I guess its deeply rooted in me, since my childhood or something..


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I’ve never completed my notes, always had to copy ‘em “later” or ask Daddy for photocopying!! And you know why, ‘cuz I write slowly and neatly trying to be perfect!! ‘cuz my mom wants me to be so!!
It’s so complicated!!
It’s not the “incomplete notebook” or the “incomplete homework”, or “studying in the last minute” before getting into the examination hall, or "handing in my project" after the deadline with Rubzy's help!!!!!!! It’s much more than that.. & NOW, It’s transformed to relationships and more!!
I’m not perfect, and no one is, but I need that perfect someone for me.. Guess it’s too much to ask!!
Anyhow, I’m quitting my job!! Dunno if that’s related, but guess this explains something too..


Dunno if THIS (The Relative Best) is related but it made sense to me..SOMEHOW!
SOS..I need HELP!
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.

She's all over the place.
~~Avril Lavigne~~


Anonymous said...

Sarah : Are you the one who wrote these words and really want to mayors to the homeland and prevents the purpose of this is parents do not agree that this idea and why?

I wish to be friends.

sara said...

I didn't understand your question!

As you are a muslim; I think that you're totally aware that this friendship you're asking for, won't please Allah, nor His messenger, salla Allahu 'alaihy wa salam..

May Allah guide us all.. Amen.

sara said...

Sometimes some people get me wrong
When its something Ive said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun
Thats why you turn and run
But now I truly realise
Some people dont wanna cpomromise
Well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
And well I dont wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights Im sorry to say lady

Im walking away from the troubles in my life
Im walking away oh to find a better day
Im walking away from the troubles in my life
Im walking away oh to find a better day
Im walking away

Momekh said...

sister, you said it.
I just came home from soccer. I have been playing this game for one solid year now. On and off. But for a year.

I get picked last! Of course I hate it. I can't seem to get my game together, can't even seem to control the damn ball when it is passed to me. I play a forward and hardly find the back of the net.

Now here is the cracker: The team I play with, is probably one of the best teams in the large city of Lahore. I get picked last there. But I know for a fact, that most of the other teams in and around Lahore will pick me on any given day to play in their starting lineup.
Sometimes I wish I would just start playing with those teams, to get my ego up a little I guess. But the benchmark to 'have' is the one that is the highest, I figure. That is not a hardnfast rule, but it is a good one nonetheless. I keep telling myself that one day, God be willing, I will be one of the better ones in the team. That, my sister, will effectively make me one of the best in Lahore. You follow? Relative best... I suck at soccer, but only when I am playing amongst the best. And I think, that is one of the better ways to go. No?

sara said...

God be willing, the relative best..
God be willing, getting a grip..
God be willing, f e r d o u s..

Anonymous said...

I know not everyones problems and feelings are exactly the same.... but know I am in the same place, so at least we are not alone there. I understand the words completly. I just feel broken, wounded, or that I gave all I had. I need help too.... no one comes.... I dont know if I can fix me all by myself, is it wrong to ask god to please send someone to help breath some life back into me? I used to love so much ....

sara said...

Well, I'd like to start with a biiiiiiiiiig sqeezy hug..
and a sincere kiss..
And now a look in your eyes while telling you, ITS OK.. of coarse it is..
Ask Him, 'cuz there ain't anyone more generous to ask.. really, no one whatsoever!

Wallahi its the best thing.. Asking Him, pleading, begging, while knowing and believing that its aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall in His Hands..
The Almighty..
The Lord..
The Opener to the lock of everything..

I'm glad that you're feeling with me.. it's nice.. I don't mean suffering like me, but sharing and.... sharing!

Love you Leanne..
And appreciate your warmth and depth..
Love ya :)

And oh, almost forgot, regarding "used to love so much", I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT!!
I love soooooooooooooo much when i love, and it doesn't annoy me, what annoys me is the indifference people have!!!!!!

Dunno what to say really.. go on with your love.. That im sure of.. its right, so carry on..
every action has to get a reaction.. sooner or later..

Leanne, thanx for being here :)

Physputer said...

Thank you for your brief commment. I appreciate a real comment rather than the spam comments I usually receive. Forgive me for my late response. You commented on my blog concerning Suha Arafat back in Nov. of 2004.
I'm not quite so young or as poetic as you, however I'm fascinated in making a connection with someone in a place I will probably never know.
Thank you again and I also pray that the God we have in common will guide us to honorable decisions.
With Respect,

sara said...

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOW, I really can't remember this comment i've made :)
But all I know, is that I find it sooooo fascinating to connect with people all the way accross the world!!
And ameeeeeeeeeeeeeen to your sincere prayer..
May He guide us all..

And thanx a lot for your complement!!

And thank you more for replying back after a long while..

with respect,

ps. We have things in common more than we know! Starting from clay!

Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

im sorry agian sara and please delet one first comment