(: here's to growing together :)

Remember when you saw this piece,
And said it’s written for us,
“It’s pointing at our little present,
That’s made just for us”..
Today as we grow together,
And you turn to this number you fear,
And tell me you’ve done nothing,
And refuse from me to hear..
Well here I am going to say,
The things you won’t approve of today,
So please try to believe me,
And not just read in dismay..
Knighty, oh my knightiest knight,
This day I say what’s right,
You’re The One whom have lightened my life,
And filled it with love, grace and lovely things in sight,
You were the one they all turned to,
After being the one with the very tightened shoe,
You were always chasing peace,
And tried all roads to say the least,
You’re life is like the spaghetti you love,
Quick, slippery, & saucy full of stuff,
Tangled, knotted, twisted & limitless,
Packed in a suitcase and shown in your fists,
Your presence is light just like your soul,
And adds comfort with one sentence roll,
You worry and care and try to always be fair,
And what you got you always share,
Trust me I’m not here to complement,
Or make you happy with words, its feelings that are meant,
To let you know that you’ve done much,
To my world, and others that are a bunch,
God only Knows the warmth you bring along,
And how much of His few good men you dream to become,
Today you’re a day older, with others who carry your name,
Others who always want to with you play this life game,
And be your comfort, your home, your delight, and honor for you,
Be your joy, this little something special, made just for you..

"On The Run"

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Hello bloggy, hello world,

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Our worlds seem to be very similar, they’re always On The Run.. We’re always out of time, always planning to put things first and postpone others.. I just wanted to take a stop and ponder upon the fact that being on the run is never an excuse to postpone things that matter first..
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We just lost a young life recently and none of us seemed to be ready to face such a thing.. It’s hard to see death so close and not freak out.. Don’t know why, but my fear of losing my loved ones grows every day of my life and beats all of my other fears.. Death is so close, but we tend to not want to see it coming our direction.. We subconsciencly push our fears away and are never ready to face ‘em..

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I ask God to grant me and my loved ones and all of humanity compassion and strength to face what we don’t want to face.. There’s a very lovely prayer dear Mama asks for every now and then:
“Allahuma ij’alna ‘abeed ihsan, wala taj’alna ‘abeed ibtelaa’..”
“Oh God let us be slaves of your bliss, and not slaves who udergo your tests..”
AMEN!

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May God rest A.M.’s soul in peace, and grant his family the patience until they meet with him in a far better place and us all, amen..

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P.S. “On The Run” is the name of all the mini cafes that you’d find at most of the gas stations here in Egypt (how I miss my Oasis, sighs..)..

"Una palabra no dice nada....

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.... y al mismo tiempo lo esconde todo"

~ M O M ~

MOM, happy Mother's Day.. Happy Mother's Day everyday.. May your warmth keep on flowing filling our lives with this inner sakeena that we all carry 'cuz of you.. You're our pillar Mommy, you're our main course & our dessert.. Thank you for giving life to me, giving me your life, making me your life and growing my life bigger and making it fuller by handing me the best gift of life, by giving me the warmest mom in the universe :') Thank you for protecting me from me, thank you for making me the big girl that I am today, flying me over to the knightiest knight by giving me wings, while putting your hand on your heart praying for a happy new me.. I look up to you while doing it all.. You taught me love, without teaching it.. You're the best teacher mama.. You're the only teacher with no chalk no board no date, no homework, no assignments & no margin, you're the only one who teaches with that unbeatable big beating heart.. Your class is the best: lovely smell, most comfortable chairs, best colors that are found nowehere else, strongest brushes that never die, kids that turn to lovely big birds & walls filled with the biggest wings I've ever seen.. I try copying you mom, but it never works, I try to bring any similarity between my hands & yours, but to no avail.. Mama, will I be a mama like you? Or at least close? That's my biggest wish now mom.. Can't you train us? Show us how to practise your holy "unconditional love"? Can't you fly over to every home and grant them a touch of love that would make this world a more warmth-filled one? Wish I was in your arms now, and again not to give you anything, 'cuz I got nothin, but to take some from your rich river of goodness.. Happy day everyday mama, I LOVE YOU :')

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"Spinning, laughing, dancing to
her favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
Is all alone

Eyes wide open
Always hoping for the sun
And she'll sing her song to anyone
that comes along

Fragile as a leaf in autumn
Just fallin' to the ground
Without a sound

Crooked little smile on her face
Tells a tale of grace
That's all her own

Spinning, laughing, dancing to her favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
And she's all alone"

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~ Norah Jones ~

T o G e t H e r

E G Y P T = C H A N G E ........ That's where I'm at now, land of my ancestors & my offspring it seems! I guess you all know of the spin we're in down here, & the burst that's been going on around everywhere else.. Everyone's popping like popcorn and stretching with a hope for a better tomorrow.. I have nothing more to say about it here than what Nina had to say, she got it all right, you could watch her here ;)

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Wish our world today wasn't this sad.. Wish things weren't this hard.. Wish everyone was happy and on their own they could stand.. But no.. This ain't the truth.. People aren't comfortable in their own shoes anymore.. They all want new ones all the time, ones with weird colors/shapes & non existing features.. Can't we just take them off for a day, walk barefoot and feel the ground, feel our weight and get lighter, get in touch with our Earth's spirit and run as far as our feet could carry us! Touch the sky maybe.. Grab a star.. Have a cloudy cotton candy and then nap over the moon........ Can't we! Or we could ask Flint Lockwood to make each one of us a lifelong fitting pair with our favorite color ;)

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This picture on top is a thank you postcard sent to the man of my dreams, who watches out for me all the time.. Who carries me around striving to always share with me any found beauty.. Knighty, don't tire yourself, teslamly; simply 'cuz beauty & grace are within your very being, they only lie in you habeeby :) Thank you for your tenderness, thank you for being you, may you always shine through.. Bless your soul, heart, mind & body........ I...... I... I love YOU :)

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I know I've posted this Jack Johnson song before, but I truly believe it's what we need:

"There is no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing, but I can try because this is your heart
Our dreams and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
Why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's so much better when we're together

Mmm, so much better when we're together
Yeh, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well it's so much better when we're together
Yeh, it's so much better when we're together

All of these moments just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
They'll be gone too, to many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression, I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeh, so much better when we're together
Mmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's so much better when we're together
Yeh, so much better when we're together"

Sama :)

When did you last let your heart decide? I feel older today! And no, it ain’t my birthday or even close to that.. Maybe ‘cuz it’s been quite some time since I last sang with sis using our hairbrushes as our microphones, maybe? Maybe that’s why! Or maybe ‘cuz it’s been a while since I last drove so fast & raced.. Or since I crazily read a book, or pigged out, like really pigged out.. Been a while.. You see, a lot of the choices I make in my life are fully heartedly-based.. Rarely do I go logically.. I know that it doesn’t really make sense, but guess what, it works for me! Just like magic! Everyone walks their own path and only theirs.. No one walks anyone’s path.. So I can’t ever say how did I get here or what am I doing or what am I good for, ‘cuz no one can answer that except my very own self.. But what if I don’t know? Who’s this sad girl? Empty? What am I good for? I truly don’t know! Missing a lotta pieces of me.. Feel chattered as if I got shredded and spread all over the continents.. There’s this lump I feel in my throat suffocating me nowadays, is it just a feeling, don’t really know..

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Miss my school kids & my lovely cousins so much & can’t believe I missed the delivery of their newest freshly heaven-made: SAMA :D Welcome to earth sweetie :) Kids here are so un-kidish, if I may say.. Unfortunately lost their innocence with their birth.. How’s my kiddo gonna be like, look like, act like, walk like, breathe like, sing like, cry like, talk like, smell like, dance like, sleep like, eat like, laugh like? Is it a he or a she? Am I gonna be a good mommy? “Is this real life?”.. Sama is a beautiful girl’s name right? It means sky in Arabic.. Any suggestions for special girls/boys names? Goodness Gracious!
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Where would you wanna be right now? With who? Doing what? I think that it’d be a huge blessing if you can make it come true.. I can’t for now.. And for a while.. Is it okay if I breathe heavily for a long while, or will it make me sick?

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By the way, I MADE IT! Before marriage, I had this wish.. It’s to make sure that whenever I do the laundry, I’d manage to miraculously bring together each pair of socks safely back to the drawer & to never split them apart & lose any, AND IT WORKED MY DEAR SISTAS :D I was close to losing one of a pair, but thankfully found it :D Don’t laugh at me, that’s hard work, ain’t it? ;) I love my washing machine, thanks for it knighty :D

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Still know nothing about cooking, & secretly fear the trial.. Dunno why.. Maybe my fear of a disappointment beats the will to risk, dunno.. Thankfully still have my charm with dips ;) Any advice would be more than welcomed :)

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What is it that people love about Egypt so much, I’d really like to know, it might make my life more peaceful.. The thing that is uniquely amazing here is how late the world goes around.. You can almost find all places open really late (late for me) & everyone up working their hearts out.. The bad part about that though is that it encourages staying up late instead of finishing up early and enjoying being home at night.. Over here, you can’t enjoy almost any outing during the day..

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I miss mom’s hands so much, what do I do about that? I stare at my hands a lot to see if they’ll look someday any mommyish, but I see nothing of that! There’s this thing about mama’s hands that’s so mommy like, Gosh how I love ‘em.. Bless your hands & all of you mommy, I love you & pray to God I’d someday be close to how amazing you are, I LOVE YOU!

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How can a city not have a video/DVD store? Huh? No place here to rent movies from! How fun! People here dunno the joy of that! Egyptians: You’re missing a lot!

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I love December! It’s never dark where I come from; as it always begins with our national day, U.A.E.. Lights & fireworks everywhere aaaaaaaaall the way until new years.. Happy national day U.A.E.ians :D

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Do you know that the Nile River is one of paradise’s rivers? How come! I wonder..

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More info on Egyptians, do you know that they give newlyweds money? Does this go on in other countries as well? Dunno why it feels weird, despite the fact that logically it’s supposed to be helpful .. Dunno!

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Imagine all the phones of the world die out today, can you continue living?

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Enough talking :$
Peace out :)

LYKYS

" I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart).. I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling).. I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet).. I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true).. And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you.. Here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart......

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart) "
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~ By E. E. Cummings ~

My Sunlight :)

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You Are My Sunlight :)

My fears you always fight..

May you live longer & longer in bliss,

& I'd get to your forehead & hands to kiss..

Miss your smell, your face, your hands, your clothes,

And everything you touch & that your hand folds..

Bless you Mommy today & everyday,

& wish I was there to wish you in person today :')