Monday, October 30, 2006

materials!! sara's odd side!!

Romina Bacci said:
"How obvious is it that i LOVE textures??? and nature patterns, and soft, warm, comfy materials . . ."
". . . i'll be watching you behind the trees, i'm afraid there's nothing behind the ocean . . . :)"


I totally know what she's talking about!! I'm a material freak!! Like I can't sleep without rapping this very soft li'l cover around my feet, & this thing has been there for me since day 1 on this planet!! And oh, I can't sleep on simply anything!! and there are certain rituals... and .... Anyhow, I don't know if I'm getting the idea across, but I'm glad I filled you in with this weird side bloggy ;) There's a lot more, but I don't wanna freak you out :) Hope you accept me for who I am!!

Thursday, October 26, 2006

~~~ better together ~~~

"Shifts (of angels) take turns, staying with each one of you - they are in front of you and behind you. They stay with you, and guard you in accordance with GOD's commands. Thus, GOD does not change the condition of any people unless they themselves make the decision to change. If GOD wills any hardship for any people, no force can stop it. For they have none beside Him as Lord and Master."
~~Qur'an 13:11~~
More about this ayah
"There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together
Mmmmmm, It's always better when we're together
Yeah we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah it's always better when we're together
And all of these moments
just might find their way into my dreams tonight,
But I know that they’ll be gone
when the morning light sings
and brings new things
for tomorrow night you see
that they’ll be gone too,
too many things I have to do"
~ Jack Johnson ~
Yeah It's always better when we're together people!
We're ALL getting to an end, sooner or later!
It's always better when we're together!

Sunday, October 22, 2006

/\ BlueSkiesUpAhead /\

/\ /\ /\ UP UP UP /\ /\ /\
Well, that's the dream I've been having eversince I started dreaming!!!
Not kidding...
I've frequently dreamt of flying up, my body going lighter, and people around me (different people everytime) watching me astonishingly... so I try not to go
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higher; so that they wouldn't feel bad for not being able to get as high as myself... and at other times I don't (fly higher); as I worry that if I went higher it would hurt descending back down!!!!!! I don't know what's this all about, but its gorgeous, actually unbelievable!! Me feeling this LIGHT :)
May Allah ease our hardships and lighten our burdens... Amen.

".....Like walking around with little wings on my shoes,

My stomach's filled with the butterflies,

Ooh, and it's all right,

Bouncing round from cloud to cloud,

I'd got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,

If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied,


So I'll say why don't you and I,

Get together and take on the world and be together forever,

Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,

So I'll say why don't you and I,

Hold each other and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,

Cause without you they're never gonna let me in....."

/\ why dont you and i /\

by Carlos Santana Chad Kroger

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

love that binds :)

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love that binds

"JUST WONT QUIT - By Meat Loaf
And I never really sleep anymore,
and I always get those dangerous dreams
And I never get a minute of peace,
and I gotta wonder what it means
And I gotta wonder what it means
Maybe it’s nothing and I’m under the weather
Maybe it’s just one of those bugs going round
Maybe I’m under a spell and it’s magic
Maybe there’s a witch doctor with an office in town
Oh is this a blessing or is it a curse?
Does it get any better? Can it get any worse?
Will it go on forever or is it over tonight?
Does it come with the darkness? Does it bring out the light?
Is it richer than diamonds or just a little cheaper than spit?
(I don’t know what it is)
I don’t know what it is but it just won’t quit

I somehow or the other end up quoting meat loaf songs. Maybe someday I will meet him or the writer Jim Steinman and over a cup of coffee we will discuss how his writings and my life stem from the same seed maybe. And a million of other listeners who bougth the music have the same feelings. Thats why Meat Loaf is what he is. Anyways, besides the point.
I sit here tonight, and I have no point to make. Just a song I was listening to and it just began to make sense. I dont know what it is but it just wont quit. Heh.
Sometimes I dont like what I am becomming. Or has become. I know for a fact that humans have the power to change the world just by changing themselves. I know I can change. But what if I think that I dont need to. What if my follies are what I think are my assets? What if my mistakes and misses are considered by me as my triumphs and goals?
Seriously, love is the power that binds. Is it? It has an unimaginably short shelf life. Is that what binds? Nope. Its not that love.That kinda love is what has been commercialized beyong repair. The love that binds is based on commitments, not on impulse. The real love stems from nothing but commitment. The raw passion with which you tell yourself that you will. Everyday. That is real love. And that love can be for you God, your spouse or your family n friends. That sort of love is pure. It does not have the selfishness, the self-loathing or the fears associated with the commercialized love.
There is no thing as unconditional love. Only God has the right and the Power to do such a magnificient feat - that of unconditional love. humans are not capable. Mothers are the closest who come to giving unconditional love to their children. Love without a purpose is like a rebel without a cause - useless. Unconditional love as interpreted by most is somewhat equal to blind faith. Blind Trust. That is again not possible by humans. One has to show that trust, that love. Even to God. That is why even God doesnt demand it. God wants you to find Him through His signs, not just believe and trust in Him blindly. As has been clearly said in the Quran. In the heavens and the Earth, God has put signs for people of understanding. To intrepet and ponder over, to do what humans should and can do - think. The other part of their time is for action. Think and Act. Preferably in that order.
So now as I sit here… hurting in more than one ways, I think of all the times that I have let people I love down. And even worse, let people down who love me back. And I do need to act. Make ammends. I can say, with my eyes and heart bowing down in Praise, that I have people who love me. My girl, my family and my friends. And I need to make ammends. Find within the love that binds, not that just hurts."


Saturday, October 14, 2006

The Lord's Mercy Toward Women

"Allah has made an example for those who believe: the wife of Pharaoh, when she said: 'My Lord, build a house in the Garden for me in Your presence, rescue me from Pharaoh and his deeds, and rescue me from this wrongdoing people.' And Maryam, the daughter of 'Imran, who guarded her chastity-We breathed Our Spirit into her. She confirmed the Words of her Lord and His Book, and was one of the obedient"
(Qur'an, 11-12)
And when the angels said: " Maryam, Allah has chosen you and purified you. He has chosen you over all other women. "
(Qur'an, 3:42)
We must bond with Allah through our love for Him and hold Him dearer than anything else by living according to what pleases Him. Anyone who lives this genuine faith, Allah willing, will find the best reward in His presence.

Friday, October 13, 2006

s h e l v e d !

"It sucks to have back problems. I feel like an old man walking around - all hunched over - walking slow - making grunting sounds."
--by no traces--
It's all good, we have to take it if 'God wills' for it to happen.. but you know what sucks? when 'we will' it to ourselves... Then it sucks... 'cuz then, we cause this pain to ourselves... & by then, to whine or not to whine won't be the question... Its the action... I know I'm not making any sense,

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so I'll try to make things clearer...
I was working in this amazing lovely school, but I knew from the start that the position i held wasnt meant for me.. (I taught the KG level, and I knew that its soooo not me...) Its not of my character to deal with this sensitive age... But I 'shelved' this for some other reasons... I suffered severe back pains,(as I already have back problems) & that was 'cuz of my emotional stress more than my physical... Thing is, I love dedication in whatever I do, and that was lacking... Or in other words, I tried my best, but the outcome wasn't all that...
But a week ago, I said NO... I couldn't take it anymore... And yesterday was my last day there...
Moreover, sub'hanAllah, right after taking the desicion, I got another job offer from the school I graduated from to teach grade 4... That was a blaaaaaast :) I taught previously grades 1 to 5, and thats THE age I can deal with competently... 6 and above...
Yohooooooo... :)
Praise belongs to Him, my Sustainer and yours...

Pray for me to do it right all the way :) :) :)
Sunday will be my first day over there...
May ALlah grant us all tawfeeq... Amen.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Verily mankind is ungrateful

Oh Allah, put comfort back into my heart and do not let me die without earning Your pleasure. Amen.
Oh Allah, take away this heaviness and ache in my chest and replace it with lightness and appreciation of the sweetness of all of Your blessings. Amen.

We take, take and take... And then cling, cling and cling...

Lorraine said:“In dying we live, in living we die”

It’s all coming to an end… Its not worth it…This clinging…

Clinging, clinging & clinging…

My heart is aching… It’s so serious…

Oh my Lord, let me return to You with a good heart. Amen.

Monday, October 09, 2006

the happy bubble of protection has popped!

She said:
"We all do that, mistaking luck for protection, or thinking that the most awful thing won't happen, precisely because it's so awful. It's as if we believe in
justice, and believe that it sees things by our lights. When I tried to pray, one thought that tripped me up was "What if I do deserve this? What if I deserve it and don't even know it?" But I had to leave that behind, too. Like the man in the movie says, "Deserve's got nothing to do with it."

Well, I wanna post here on 'ayah from the holy Qur'an, that would hopefuly help you see better... And please try to contemplate as hard as you can...

"GOD never burdens a soul beyond its means: to its credit is what it earns, and against it is what it commits. "Our Lord, do not condemn us if we forget or make mistakes. Our Lord, and protect us from blaspheming against You, like those before us have done. Our Lord, protect us from sinning until it becomes too late for us to repent. Pardon us and forgive us. You are our Lord and Master. Grant us victory over the disbelieving people."

"Deserve's got nothing to do with it."
You said: "This isn't a very heavy burden, and I can't complain, since I've learned something."

See, God's words are right? don't you think?

Uzma Mazhar said:
"Trust is the most basic building block in relationships."

And the most important relationship of all, is your realtionship with the Lord Almighty... it leads to a very successful and healthy chain of relationships... So we better strengthen & keep our trust in Him... The One & Only...

Uzma Mazhar also said regarding the Scope of 'Wellness':
"Wellness approaches life from the perspective that all human beings function at four levels: the physical, intellectual, emotional and spiritual levels. For optimum health we need to look at the whole person. Each of these aspects/levels impact on the well-being of the individual. Just picking the dimension of wellness that you like and ignoring the others doesn't work in the long run......." The key is to "get beyond the distractions"


"............There is no concrete wellness formula. You have to discover what works for you. And don't try to be perfect in creating one... take it easy on yourself. ;-)"

"So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief: Verily, with every difficulty there is relief."
(Quran 94:5-6)

space & time...

Ara said:
"...I actually wasn't thinking in any faith or religious way in particular, but in the form in which humans come to find Trascendency _for me, Its name is Allah The Highest. And how this way remains across space and time."
10/09/2006 1:54 AM


Saturday, October 07, 2006

"step by step"

STEP_mind in calm.


I feel love beacause of You...


"The tear drops fall from his eyes that night,
too much of a man to be crying in plain sight.
Finds himself at the beginning again
cant understand why he cant break this sin

I dont know who said that it was easy
to conquer the world that exists inside of me
My lights are dim and the roads are dark
but the night's always darkest right before dawn

So hold in to this moment cause it might just be what you need
And you know that youre growing
when you find yourself down on your knees.

Its the trails of life, its the rain and the night
that makes you more than just your dreams…"

a splendid prayer...

A brother made this prayer, it made me go like... WOW... So true... He said: "..we are only in a pathway but we tend to forget this pathway seems to be long for us, but at the end there is the stay, hope for both of us and all the muslims that this stay is paradise.."
Amen brother Ali eldin Mohamed ElKasaby... Amen.
Thing is, we're so forgetful... SOOOOO forgetful!!!!

However, I'ld like to add something to what
you said... You said that this pathway seems so long, and guess what?! On the day of judgement, we'll all think of it as a day or a part of a day!! So we better get prepared... And these holy days are a huge support...
May Allah guide us all to what pleases Him, and eventually land in Jannah... Or in other words, fly to Jannah... Amen. :)

I'ld like to dedicate this song to you, Leanne, Ara & all...

"…When I pass I dont wanna leave a life of regret

So I give rise to change today by trying not to forget

That pleasures do pass and sunrises end

and stars do fade away

But its a love and its virtue and honor and truth

that remain for all days.

And I believe tonight is the night that I decide

That i get busy living and I get ready to die

So that when the fateful day does come

when Im six feet in the ground

The poor and the weak and the orphans and meek

will miss having me around

I want that final breath to be the sweetest of all

And it will be with certainty if I answer that call

To help all those in need and decipher the meaning of life

Cause the seekers of truth, they fear not death

any more than they fear life…"