Friday, October 13, 2006

s h e l v e d !

"It sucks to have back problems. I feel like an old man walking around - all hunched over - walking slow - making grunting sounds."
--by no traces--
It's all good, we have to take it if 'God wills' for it to happen.. but you know what sucks? when 'we will' it to ourselves... Then it sucks... 'cuz then, we cause this pain to ourselves... & by then, to whine or not to whine won't be the question... Its the action... I know I'm not making any sense,

(picture's source)
so I'll try to make things clearer...
I was working in this amazing lovely school, but I knew from the start that the position i held wasnt meant for me.. (I taught the KG level, and I knew that its soooo not me...) Its not of my character to deal with this sensitive age... But I 'shelved' this for some other reasons... I suffered severe back pains,(as I already have back problems) & that was 'cuz of my emotional stress more than my physical... Thing is, I love dedication in whatever I do, and that was lacking... Or in other words, I tried my best, but the outcome wasn't all that...
But a week ago, I said NO... I couldn't take it anymore... And yesterday was my last day there...
Moreover, sub'hanAllah, right after taking the desicion, I got another job offer from the school I graduated from to teach grade 4... That was a blaaaaaast :) I taught previously grades 1 to 5, and thats THE age I can deal with competently... 6 and above...
Yohooooooo... :)
Praise belongs to Him, my Sustainer and yours...

Pray for me to do it right all the way :) :) :)
Sunday will be my first day over there...
May ALlah grant us all tawfeeq... Amen.
PS... TRY NOT TO POSTPONE! IT AIN'T RIGHT!

9 comments:

palo-girl said...

hey,
i like your blog :)
peace

sara said...

peace be unto u and urs...
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And by the way, when i got that job offer, it was in the masjid!!! yep the mosque!!!
I asked Allah to help me and assist me in finding a better job, and there I find my old school's headmistress waving, and later she tells me that she needs a teacher asap for grade 4 as I mentioned earlier...
Supplications work!!
Sincere ones...
And by the way, no sincere du'a gets rejected... It goes up, and Allah grants us it, or holds it to check our patience and grants us something better...
We are soooo in need for Him.
Really...
He knows best.

palo-girl said...

You know your story reminds me of the exams I had last June. For two months before the exams, I was the most piest I had ever been in my life, and I prayed with ALL my heart, to the point that I really felt that there was an open door between me and the heavens. One day, I was late for one of my exams, and the examination officer told me to leave the examination hall and that I might not be able to sit the exam - that meant failing the whole paper. So there I was, standing outside the hall waiting for the officer to come and speak to me. In those few minutes, I prayed with so much passion that I just KNEW that Allah was listening - I could feel it....

The officer came out and told me that, since it was the first offence, I could sit the exam with a warning... :)

sara said...

thanx for taking time to share this...
Masha'Allah see... thats what I'm talking about :)
not justthe acceptence of the du'a... But that feeling of "there was an open door between me and the heavens."

Masha'Allah...
May Allah increase those beautiful moments in our lives... Amen.
Thanx again for sharing...
Love ya palo girl...
May I ask, whats your name?

palo-girl said...

you know it's funny... you're the first to ask me on blogger! my name is shahd (it's spelt that way but we usually pronounce it as shahed/shahad), and it's nice to meet you :)
salam

sara said...

And you know what?
In the arab world, we neck name Shahd by Shahdooda ;)
Nice to meet you too...
REALLY :)
ps. SO whatsup with palo? what do u mean by palo?
:)

palo-girl said...

lol... my mum calls me shahooda,
palo: short for palestinian... was that not obvious? :s maybe i should change it then!

sara said...

Nope, it wasn't obvious to me!!
Maybe other people do get it, ask a couple of people then decide...
:)

BIG HUG TO ALL THE PALESTENIANS OUT THERE. TO ALL MUSLIMS. TO ALL HUMANS. TO THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD>>> MAY ALLAH GUIDE US ALL>>> AMEN>>>

palo-girl said...

Ameen