Saturday, December 27, 2008
Did you ever try swimming in December in an outdoor pool without freezing? I did, just last night ;)
I really wanna feel cold.. Wanna freeze.. Here, in the land of warmth & shining sun, its hard to feel that..
To all you people freezing out there, look at the bright side, you're FEELING COLD :)
Friday, December 26, 2008
This picture tells exactly how I feel on that land.. The land that carried the prophets of Allah.. The land that carried The Blessed Lady, Maryam.. The land of all lands.. I feel so good knowing that I'll be stepping there soon, inshaAllah.. I know time will be short, but I wanna take every breath I can & recharge my senses.. Wanna grow my heart stronger.. Wanna get blessings.. Wanna kiss those foreheads.. Wanna do so many things, so help me God..
Mr. Laundry Man passed away.. You don't know him, neither do I.. But his favors were many, to us & others.. He's made many people's lives look prettier.. He's saved our times, & with his old hands beautified our existence.. Please pray for him on this lovely Friday & ask ArRaheem to make it easy on him & his loved ones.. I don't know if they'll be able to see him for one last time, or the papers will stand on their way.. Pudding took his money & decided to plant it for Mr. Laundry Man's path (f)
Ya Allah :')
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Yeah, so I was thinking, why do we always throw the seeds of the fruits after having 'em? I think it'd be better if we save 'em & then plant them, or give 'em to those who do that.. Whenever I have a date, I feel so bad when throwing it's seed.. I'm thinking not to any more..
I'm not much of a reader, I wish I was.. I enjoy reading so much when it's a good read.. When it has a lotta flying & drifting in it.. And when I'm in THAT mode.. Mode is the secret to it all.. I fear the future with its seasonal moods.. Swinging ones.. I fear not having the power to contain it.. I fear having people who wouldn't help & support me when need be..
I read a very old love letter today, full of inspiration & lovely dreams.. I wonder how she felt when reading it.. I also wonder how he grew to be so.. So.. So loving.. Where's the love, the love, the love..
We need to know that the purpose behind our creation is filled with LOVE.. If we realize that, things are surely gonna get better!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
I love/d it:
When a cute li'l kiddo was blowing bubbles & this huge one came right at me, touched me, & decided not to blow up & carried on flying :)
When a butterfly came to our classroom & spread giggles all over my class :)
When I got sooooooo sick & saw that extreme unconditional love sparkle in their eyes :)
When we sat together & looked six again :)
When the kids in my class made me a star & a tiara :)
When the night turns into day :)
When I look at my room's curtains :)
When Pudding hugs/kisses me without me begging for it :)
When I feel God Watching over me :)
When R. imitated me & hung stars in her bedroom like the ones I hung for the class :)
When I see two birds together (I never see one on its own!) :)
When someone says something nice about someone behind their back :)
When I found that seat from between a hundred others :)
When daddy helps with our house chores :)
When I cause a real smile :)
When I write here :)
When you get me :)
When I get a real warm tap on my shoulder, & when............ so much more things to share, but I gotta go & gotta post this.. So smile, for God likes it when you do :)
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Why is everyone around me a “sometimes” person, somehow? They sometimes smile & sometimes frown like they’ve never smiled ever before.. They sometimes laugh & spread love & at some other times they freak others out like hell.. They sometimes shine like a dancing sunshine on a breezy ocean, and at other times they jump up & down with anger eating others’ flesh OUT LOUD!
I’d like to declare tonight that I’m not & would never want to die knowing that I’m somehow remotely close to being a “sometimes” girl!
I’m an “all timer”! A kid’s smile can lift my spirit at any given time.. Hearing ‘em say “Miss Sara” makes my heart dance at all times.. Birds coming to our balcony always puts a smile on my face.. In my saddest moment, I can’t but smile to others.. In my deepest pain, I know how to take hold of my very inside.. Dad pointing to the new moon, or them red clouds saying: “subhanAllah” would always make me touch the sky.. Looking at the kids’ drawings on my room’s walls always reminds me that it can all, somehow, get better..
Why would they kill themselves by acting sometimes sweet & at other times loosing it? How stupid they must be! I mean, it’s easier to be angry all the time instead of acting sweet & ruining it by being angry.. khalas, be angry & touch the real you & then take a change from there.. But don’t convince yourself that you’re the good guy, while you KNOW that you’re nothing even C.L.O.S.E. to that!
Don’t the good ones know that they’re bad at times & take it from there? Isn’t this why they’re called good in the first place?!
Don’t go blaming others for your mess.. It’s your mess dude! YOURS!
Guys, WALLAHI, By Allah, we don’t have much time left.. My dear friend called today telling me how she misses her mom & how she’d do anything to have her back for only one second.. Don’t waste your time over stupid silly drives that would lead to nothing but regret.. And don’t hesitate on doing things that are beautiful.. BonsaiSky, inna lillah wa inna ilaihy raji'oon.. Akeeeeed!
Pardon me, but I’m a li’l amazed! And anyways, to pass a smile on, now that you’ve read this far, li’l sara (a beautiful girl I teach with a beautifully long Arabian hair) had this dream of me: “I saw you miss in the mall looking like a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig candy & all the school kids eating you up..” :D
Thursday, December 04, 2008
"O people! Behold, we have created you from a male and a female and have made you into nations and tribes to that you might come to know one another. Verily, the noblest of you in the sight of God is the one who is most deeply conscious of Him. Behold, God is all-knowing, all-aware." [Qur'an 49:13]
"Know one other".. A wrong/funny example of "knowing" one another is described here by Batouly..
I've met so many people in my life.. So many.. From all different backgrounds.. One thing I learnt, TRUST YOUR INSTINCTS!
However, it breaks my heart when I trust my instincts, & after a while, they prove me wrong :'(