little 7aki :D

You gotta read these cute conversations between mama 7aki & her little 7aki :)
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A conversation with little 7aki

Random conversations with little 7aki

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Why I wish I was 3

7aki ilzgheereh goes to bed

May Allah preserve li'l 7aki for her mama.. And may she be her way to heaven.. Amen :)

Organic Muslimah's letters :)

Here are some heartfelt beautifully written letters by Organic Muslimah.. These letters touched my heart of hearts.. Organic Muslimah, do you really exist? I thought there was only one me in his world! Thought I was the only one who had those feelings! :)

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Dear Husband
A Letter to My Unborn Daughter
A Letter to Every Sheikh
From an Unhappy Wife
A Letter to all Females
If Only
My Husband

Hossam & Eman..

Beautiful story written by Organic Muslimah.. I truly enjoyed reading it.. It touched my hearty heart.. I lived in it.. Literally :)

Here goes: (click to read)
Part 1: Hossam looks for marriage
Part 2: When Hossam meets Eman
Part 3: Hossam and Eman talk
Part 4: Hossam faces rejection
Part 5: Hossam's letter
Part 6: Eman Emails Back

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Thanks for your insight & time sister..

Love you fiLlah begad :)

What are they called?

I wish I could know what these flowers are called? Here's their story.. When I started recognizing things around me , including plants, these were the first flowers I got to know.. Baba used to get me one everyday.. & up until now, he gets me one every now & then.. The last time he got me one, was when I came back home & found it on my pillow.. I cried like a baby.. But here's a secret>> I kinda don't like touching them, from their tips! They have a
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lotta hair like leaves that scare me! AND I LOVE THEM!! AIN'T THAT WEIRD?! I used to get scared of all plants.. Like scared of touching them.. Until now, walking on grass irritates me a lot!! I always try avoiding that.. All I know is that, I'm crazy about flowers (both seeing & holding them).. Some one once said that it's haram gifting them!! Don't know the authenticity of that? I love plants.. Love their silence, delicacy & beauty.. Love the fact that they are LIVING! I wish I could find out what baba's flowers are called.. They smell goooooood :)

There is a flower that bees prefer,
And butterflies desire;
To gain the purple democrat
The humming-birds aspire.

And whatsoever insect pass,
A honey bears away
Proportioned to his several dearth
And her capacity.

Her face is rounder than the moon,
And ruddier than the gown
Of orchis in the pasture,
Or rhododendron worn.

She doth not wait for June;
Before the world is green
Her sturdy little countenance
Against the wind is seen,

Contending with the grass,
Near kinsman to herself,
For privilege of sod and sun,
Sweet litigants for life.

And when the hills are full,
And newer fashions blow,
Doth not retract a single spice
For pang of jealousy.

Her public is the noon,
Her providence the sun,
Her progress by the bee proclaimed
In sovereign, swerveless tune.

The bravest of the host,
Surrendering the last,
Nor even of defeat aware
When cancelled by the frost.

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~ By Emily Dickinson ~

Wish I could always be daddy's li'l girl & never grow older.. And never see him get weaker.. I want him as strong as always.. Want him always standing tall & grabbing me by the hand & teaching me how the world revolves.. But wishes are only wishes.. And the world is only worldly world.. And the tide is always strong, whether high or low.. The more you live, the more gravity pulls down your features.. The more you stand, the more you slant..

I reason, earth is short,
And anguish absolute.
And many hurt;
But what of that?

I reason, we could die:
The best vitality
Cannot excel decay;
But what of that?

I reason that in heaven
Somehow, it will be even,
Some new equation given;
But what of that?

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~ By Emily Dickinson ~

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I love you baba.. I love you more than me.. And if I spend my whole life saying thank you, it wouldn't even count! Thank you for being you.. Thank you for being you!!

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PS One of my dreams is to have a flowers shop, that only sells this flower.. And work in it with daddy :) That's one of my dreams..

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That's how I felt when I heard the news.. I felt so blown away, numbed, powerless, blessed & most of all, felt that there is definitely a lot to be done.. I heard & then cried & then did nothing!! I wanted to write them a letter.. I wanted to hug them.. I wanted to do a lotta things, to the limit that I didn't do any!! He died & they were going to the airport to get his dead body, in a box.. That's what happened.. As simple as can be.. He just simply stopped breathing.. His heart stopped beating.. His hands got colder.. His powerless body got wrapped & went back home to his beloved ones in a box.. How can any sane mind live with this?! How can a warm beating heart carry on living with such pain & hurt?! Like for real?! How?! How can you tell his siblings "you guys, live with memories & hold on together.. You gotta let go of him now.." How can his mom understand that when she calls his name, he won't answer?! How can his dad lean back & tell them "it'll be ok"?! How can it ever be ok?! How can they let go?! I can't stop thinking of you, the family I never met.. I can't stop thinking of your great loss & not pray.. Pray that God would grant you the strength to carry on.. To carry on living, giving & waiting patiently to be with him in God's blessed paradise.. Amen.

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To the family I never met,

You're always in my prayers

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"Do they have eyes?"

Satta: "Sweetie, you finish this plate & I'll give you a lollipop.. Deal?"
Li'l 3 year old amoona thinks so hard and goes like: "Let me see it first.."
Satta: "Okay"
And we run to where I kept the lollipop for her..
Satta: "Here it is, I'll put it here (on a bookshelf) until you're done with your

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dinner.. And then you can have it.."
Li'l amoona with eyes sparkling & mouth so watery: "Yalla, I wanna finish my meal.."
And after a few minutes & after she finished her plate & washed her li'l chubby hands & tulip-like mouth, we headed to the bookshelf & I unwrapped her lolli (while she was jumping up & down impatiently waiting for it to come out) & gave it to her..
Then amoona goes like: "Mhmmmmm, oh I love lollipops so much.."
Satta: "Lollipops love you too.." (that's what mama always says when I say I like something or some place.. she goes like "they like you too")
Li'l amoona, after thinking hard for a second: "But, do they (lollipops) have eyes?"
Satta, after getting amazed by the question: "What do you think?"
Li'l amoona: "I think they do.."
And then she carried on enjoying her lolli with unlimited joy..

Well, why did she say 'eyes'? Specified 'eyes' to 'love'? Does she mean one has to have eyes & see someone; to love them? Or did she mean that did they have eyes; to see her (cute li'l amoona)? Or what? I wonder, why oh why!!
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Satta: That's what I've been called by her ever since she started talking.. Amoona: I've been asked so many times, why amoona? Well, her name is farha.. I call her amoona; as when she started talkin & was introduced to our worldly lemons (we have those plastic lemons here in our house), she instantly after being told they're called lamoon (in arabic), she said 'amoon'.. I love the way she said 'amoon' & so I decided to call her 'amoona'.. I added the 'a', as arabic is like french, it has feminine & masculine words.. Feminine words usually have an 'a' at the end of them..

T A B O O

It's sad.. Really is.. Don't know how to describe the pain & anger I feel while seeing my beloved ones doing it & acting as if it's not really "that big deal".. People whom I look up to, do it.. People whom I dearly love.. It's a common disease that's been spreading in my beloved ummah since years & years.. The sad part

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is that they know very clearly that Allah is watching their every act & knows their innermost thoughts & feelings..And they do it while knowing that it would have redden the prophet salla Allahu alayhi wassalam's face with anger.. I'm not lecturing here.. I'm just reminding.. And what month is better & easier to drop off all bad habits in than our blessed ramadan? Listen to this: if you can quit smoking aaaaaaaaaallllllll the way from dawn until sunset, can't you just quit it from sunset until dawn? Come on, it should be really easier than normal days.. Come on.. For your sake.. YOUR sake.. You don't want the big day to come & this li'l piece of rapped crap be your reason to hell!! I'm sorry, but that's simply how it is.. Please quit! Please! If I were to tell you: you'll lose your job, your wife or any of your worldly connections if you don't quit it, won't you easily quit it? But if Allah tells you: you are on the verge of losing your eternal blissful life 'cuz of it, what would you say? You'd say I can't!! WALLAHI YOU CAN.. WALLAHI!!


"Your Lord knows the innermost thoughts hidden in their chests, as well as everything they declare."
Qur'an [28:69]


"The day will come when their own tongues, hands, and feet will bear witness to everything they had done."
Qur'an [24:24]


"O people, you are the ones who need GOD, while GOD is in no need for anyone, the Most Praiseworthy. If He wills, He can get rid of you and substitute a new creation. This is not too difficult for GOD. No soul can carry the sins of another soul. If a soul that is loaded with sins implores another to bear part of its load, no other soul can carry any part of it, even if they were related. The only people to heed your warnings are those who reverence their Lord, even when alone in their privacy, and observe the Contact Prayers (Salat). Whoever purifies his soul, does so for his own good. To GOD is the final destiny. The blind and the seer are not equal. Nor are the darkness and the light. Nor are the coolness of the shade and the heat of the sun."
Qur'an [35:15-21]


"If GOD punished the people for their sins, He would not leave a single creature on earth. But He respites them for a predetermined interim. Once their interim is fulfilled, then GOD is Seer of His servants."
Qur'an [35:45]

My Ramadanic Invitation for you :)

I'd gladly like to invite all of you living here in Abu Dhabi, to the ultimate place ever, where the most amazing blissful ramadanic nights are spent.. Here's my delightful invitation:

Location: Mos'ab Bin Omair Mosque..

Right opposite the Eid Prayer Yard..

You can find out more by clicking on the above map..

Timing: First 20 nights of ramadan,

at isha prayer followed by taraweeh prayer..

And last 10 nights of ramadan,

at isha prayer followed by taraweeh prayer

& then at vigil prayers in the last third of those nights..

**Wish every one could taste the sweetness of those nights..**

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Harken! O you who was not content to sin throughout Rajab.

His rebellion against his Lord had to continue the duration of Sha’ban.

The month of fasting has now come to shade and shelter you,

Do not transform it also into a month of sinning.

Recite the Qur’an and glorify [God], with diligent assertion.

Indeed! It is a month for glorification and the Qur’an.

Deny your bodily appetites, seeking your soul’s salvation.

Eventually, the earth will consume the body.

How many deceased people have you known who fasted?

Amongst your family, neighbors, and brothers.

Death has erased them, leaving you behind.

Get serious [about your religion], for the living are quite close to the dead!

You take delight in the ‘Eid outfits being cut out now for the festival.

But soon they will be your burial shrouds.

How long will the person be happy with his worldly home?

Knowing that his ultimate home is the grave.

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~ By Ibn Rajab al-Hanbali ~

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Rabina yefarah albek :)

I've always felt like I'm being put on hold.. Or is it me putting things on hold? I really don't know.. Always feel like I'm waiting.. Or like oh, never get so happy 'cuz I know that it'll eventually end!! Maybe it's 'cuz we've always moved from a house to another & never stayed at a house long enough that would make it home?! Maybe 'cuz i changed schools a lot?! It's just a bad feeling.. I love it when mama says Rabina yefarah albek.. That's what I need :) It means, may God put delight in your heart..
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"Cite for them the example of this life as water that we send down from the sky to produce plants of the earth, then they turn into hay that is blown away by the wind. GOD is able to do all things."

Qur'an (18:45)

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I pigged out :(

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Well, "we all just wanna be big rockstars", that's true.. But is this the rockstar you wanna be? I don't think so.. trust me, you don't wanna be that rockstar..

Lots of things have been happening lately, lots of li'l big things..

I'll start from that elevators day.. I get in the elevator in the morning, and this mom is killing the hell out of her li'l girl; cuz she's late & the school bus might be gone already.. First of all, i think you (mom) got her to get to bed late that night & missed up her system.. And now you're yelling?! Even if not, it has to be your fault somehow, 'cuz u exist to organize her life.. Like duuuuuh!! I think I'll home-school my kids if i ever have any.. Let's see about that.. Later that afternoon, I get in the elevator & by mistake press on the floor's # that's below us & then realise that mistake, so I press on ours.. As the elevator gets to the wrong floor first, I stupidly forget all of this and get out.. that was a big LOL!! Man I sooooo wanted to get home & you're telling me I'm on the wrong floor?! I was mad.. And then I thought, what if there was no elevator in the first place? Be thankful sara!!

And then comes the day bro had to go, to study!! I, for the first time ever, decided NOT TO GO TO THE AIRPORT.. And didn't even hug him goodbye!! It's so painful the whole process!! I'm a weak person.. I seriously can't handle goodbyes.. Shoot!! I suck.. I've always been like that.. Like since I was li'l, when we used to go spend 'eids at my uncle's, who lives in another city, I remember I used to secretly cry in the car on the way back.. CRY!! Is this normal?! And oh, in Cairo, in summers, when family members & friends used to come over the last night to give their goodbyes, before they leave with a while, I'd actually get in the bathroom & avoid the kissing hugging part & cry like never before!! What is it with me?! I miss you bro.. I go out almost everyday, believe it? Me miss homyyyyyy girl?! Trying to get over the fact that you're not here!! You're always always always in my heart.. I'm sadder you won't be in the masjid with us in ramadan.. YOU'RE IN MY PRAYERS.. ALWAYS!! *sigh & tears*

I also noticed this thing.. Sellers don't usually look at you while telling you about their products; as to show you that they don't really need you all that much!! Seriously, try to observe this.. Especially arab sellers!! Know what I mean? Like they look through the window or something & act busy or whatever!! What's that all about?

And here I come.. Okay I AM THE ULTIMATE ICE SKATER THAT THE WORLD HAS EVER SEEN & guess what? i've slipped & fell :( God, so what? People fall sara? No, not me.. I've never fallen since forever & I fall this easily & GET A BRUISE?! Funny thing is, I actually felt so embarrassed that i acted as if it's cool & sat on the ice for a while.. LOL.. I hated that reaction of mine.. Why am I so complicated?! I didn't look complicated, but felt so.. And by the way, I once cut my brother's finger with my skating shoe's knife thingy, see how perfect of a skater i am? It still kills me from the inside remembering me hurting him this bad :(

And then comes this amazing new soul to my life.. We clicked so fast, that I CAN"T BELIEVE IT!! I almost forgot what clicking is like.. Welcome to my life new soul & I hope you are what I'm thinking you are.. Amen :)

Yesterday I ate a lot.. I feel guilty :( I aaaaaaaate.. It was weird.. The whole day.. The prophet salla Allahu 'alaihy wasalam said: "The son of Adam does not fill any vessel worse than his stomach. It is sufficient for the son of Adam to eat a few mouthfuls, to keep him going. If he must do that (fill his stomach), then let him fill one third with food, one third with drink and one third with air." Forgive me ya Allah.. We do this 'cuz of a lotta different reasons.. Sometimes to fill a void.. People, this is never going to fill any voids.. It's bad.. real bad..

Lats night.. Oh my God, you won't believe it!! Last night, for the first time ever, after years & years of watching Tom & Jerry, I SAW A HUMAN'S FACE AT THE END OF ONE OF IT'S EPISODES!! It was the lady of the house's face.. OH MY GOD! :)

A couple of days ago, I saw this horrible car accident & just can't get it out of my head.. The car was upside down.. Ya Allah.. I wonder if they're okay.. Or what happened.. Anyways.. I know that Allah would never harm anyone nor burden them with more than they can take.. May Allah ease our pains & unite us on His straight path.. Amen.

P.S.1 I've been called sara EL hamdy lately, dunno where they got this "el" from?! LOL.. I love it :) You see, sometimes people would call you something & you would love it 'cuz it came from their heart, even if it was 'silly' or whatever.. And at other times, you'd hate being called even a princess from others.. Like at the masjid, there is this sister, she says ukhty to me in a way that I haaaaaaaaate it.. Ukhty means sis.. but God.. Hate it coming from her..

P.S.2 My sis is starting her freshman year & so she was jokingly discussing her pocket money issue with dad.. When we were young, we used to get one dirham a day to school.. So he told her, you can now take two.. AWWWWWWW babaaaaaaa :) He's the cutest ever..

"..not grieve..nor be proud.."

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"Anything that happens on earth, or to you, has already been recorded, even before the creation. This is easy for GOD to do. Thus, you should not grieve over anything you miss, nor be proud of anything He has bestowed upon you. GOD does not love those who are boastful, proud."

Qur'an [57:22-23]

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How do you feel about these ayahs? They do this thing to my heart.. Can we actually be like that? Like how can we?