Monday, June 12, 2006

TUNING IN...

Have you ever woke up from a dream and wondered if it was just a dream or if it was a premonition? I believe the only way to distinguish is if the dream comes true... But what if I told you that the whole life thing (to me) has been a dream so far... Or lemme say a bunch of dreams… It’s like I need something to wake me up… something like freezing cold water poured right into my face… I’ve always felt like I'm right on the edge of something really big. Like I can feel the forces of nature an inch away but yet won’t move an inch. I’ve always been careful to keep my centre of gravity constant as I peer over the edge. Wondering wondering wondering what I may find as the valley comes into view. But it never did!!! Someone help me see please!

5 comments:

Small Blue Thing said...

Try to read my homelander Ibn Al Arabi. I haven't been really close to his work because it's quite difficult _maybe the most difficult sufi poetry, according some experts.

Nevertheless, I always wrote about his feelings of being lost in Darkness, but, at the same time, experiencing The Light inside.

Love and salams
Bluething

sara said...

Hope you always live in this light, and believe me, it will lighten up for you and whoever surrounds you as well...

Sometimes, i really do feel that my dreams are too fragile. so why even bother dreaming when i know that how it will all turn in the end? are my expectations that high? is it really that impossible? i don't think so.

then why? why must it always shatter, breaking into bits, so much so that trying to piece it together is of no avail?

Small Blue Thing said...

Because Pain is part of Living, mu'alimati. When I first read Buddha's discourses years ago, and this one was his first discourse, I didn't understand it quite well. Too much religious traditions making a simple trught complicated, I guess.

But The Quran goes further, saying Pain is A part of Living. Joy is another one. And Hope is between.


Because of my illness, I have to deal with depression periodically. It's a time in which I feel broken down in pieces.

With time, I have realised that it's just a part of my illness, as pain in a broken leg fixing or headaches during a flu _I've just written about it, translation soon!_.

I'm not saying this is working for you _it's said that Mecca is not Damascus in a Hadith :), but _just for once, try to remember one of the things that Buddha said, "when you're in pain, just feel the pain and it will go". Because pain is part of your growing up. And maybe... maybe there's a Proposal, remember what I told you? ;)

my "talibical" prayers for you and all
bt

Tu s. Tin said...

I know exactly how you feel... and please understand I dont have dont have any negative thoughts on muslims only the militant and distorted views of Islam running wild in the world. and I dont think my country and people are completley innocent either. I just whish everyone were free to live as they chose peacefully among others who whish the same.

sara said...

"pain is part of your growing up."
So true dearest I love you....

And Tu, may peace, mercy and blessings of God be upon you, and all human beings...
I love your honesty, and respect your way of thinking a lot... And I'm so glad that someone out there can feel what Im feling!
Love ya...