Monday, April 30, 2007


Where to start? umm.. This photograph? Alright then.. I’m in love with her.. This li’l girl with the young soul whom I think is surly touched by an angel.. Okay, I gotta tell you something.. It’s not always that my folks get to like what I like or see what I see when it comes to photography.. But this!! My oh my! This sweetie pie broke all rules.. She’s right now on our desktop putting a smile on every one’s face :) Seriously! It’s maybe the beautiful sparkle in her eyes.. Or the innocent warm smile on her lips.. Or oh.. Her cheeky cheeks.. Can’t tell really.. Her simple natural hair.. Praise the Lord for this beauty.. Thank you very much Michael.. I think if I ever meet her, I won’t stop staring at her smile.. I will try to make her happy as long as I can.. And I think when she meets me, she won’t ask me what degree I’m holding.. Or how much my shoes cost.. Or how much I get paid at work.. Aha, now it’s getting to real world talk.. sara is getting her feet on the ground.. sara doesn’t want to.. But she has to..

Well well well.. first real life disgusting scenario.. I’m getting the groceries.. And this really loud family on the isle behind me meet their old friends.. “hello” “heeeeeeey” “good to meet you” “you too, how’s it going? “well, I got my masters degree, in engineering (from this university in the states or canada can't remember)..” “wow, way to go, that’s a blast” “aha thank you thank you..”.. And so goes the super duper superficial relationships.. I wonder why it wasn’t something like: “assalamu alaikum” “walaikum salam, how’s it going” “well great hamduAllah” “hey how’s your fajr prayer going? It’s been falling behind in time and getting too early, it’s a struggle, what do you guys do to catch up with it?” “well, we..”.. or you know, something a li’l higher than the limited low categories that people use in their heads & hearts nowadays to judge other "carbon life forms" as
Mohamed refers..

Second more real life disgusting scenario.. He’s playing the Qur’an radio channel in the car.. And driving.. And reciting half way wrong along with the recitor.. And while stopping at the traffic light, comes this almost naked woman on the side pavement talking on her cell phone.. Yeah I had to look.. It’s a weird human being with colors and a lotta skin showing.. So your eyes automatically look.. And then as soon as I figured out that she was an adult female doing all that I turned my head right away, while pitying her and feeling sorry for those who stare at her.. No don’t look at me! Wallahi I didn’t stare! I just had to see what was going on next to the car I'm in! The loud voice, colors hands in the air, loud laughs.. However back to the guy with the Qu’ran playing in his car.. He’s still staring at her.. WHILE HE WAS RECITING QUR’AN.. sara wanted to cry.. Tears kinda condensed.. But didn’t roll down..

Enough with the disgusting scenarios.. Real life scenarios.. I told you I didn’t want to put my feet on the ground.. It’s just that I had to..

Anyhow.. I started this training.. And left work for it.. I was called crazy.. And others disbelieved me.. "You're not getting paid for this training! You already worked and had a salary!".. However.. It's an assessment center training thingy.. It’s so educative & most importantly enlightening.. Seeing all different people.. With different reactions to being tested.. Man! What am I gonna do on the big test? THE ULTIMATE TEST! I always feel this heartbeat that always comforts me.. Ya Allah.. Oh Most Powerful.. Accept me.. And us all.. Amen.

How Mighty is Allah! Today, brother
maqsood enlightened me with a beautiful being in Allah’s creation.. The pigeons.. I learnt more about homing pigeons.. How Great ya Allah! Thinking of those pigeons.. I remember the first time my parents told me about them.. And how they delivered letters.. It’s amazing!

It’s nice to contemplate.. It supports you.. Strengthens your belief.. Your faith..
Leanne was talking to me about the bad stuff she’s been exposed to.. They say that seeing bad stuff tells the truth.. And that’s true Leanne..
"It was a tear, the song of its reflections;
I needed badly to hear it, badly to understand it
I was suddenly cold; the sadness of ashes
I cried not knowing, what wrong I had done.
Will I be able to say it, will you be able to hear it?
The rhythm of my sighs, the symphonies of silences;
As a melody that comes, and goes, and dances;
I cried thousand words, unhappy and tender.
~ by
Tariq Ramadan ~
Well, what can I say.. You can't have it all, can you?

As for those who promote the truth, and believe therein, they are the righteous. They will get everything they wish, at their Lord. Such is the reward for the righteous. GOD remits their sinful works, and rewards them generously for their good works."
Qur'an [39: 33-35]

I just wanna have truth.. Live truth.. Spread truth..
And be righteous..

Thank you blogger’s dashboard for taking all of this..
And thank you for reading..
"How about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I'm filled up
How about me not blaming you for everything
How about me enjoying the moment for once
How about how good it feels to finally forgive you
How about grieving it all one at a time
How about no longer being masochistic
How about remembering your divinity
How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How about not equating death with stopping
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence"


Maqsood Qureshi said...

My daughter should be like--did you see that girl in Bee Season? I don’t like boys unless they’re exceptionally geeky and nerdy! LOL

sara said...

You gotta li'l girl?
Awwwwww :)

But again, I didn't get when will she say so?!

sara said...

Btw, I haven't watched that movie..

sara said...

"Words may define us, but it's love that connects us."

What a beautiful tagline!

Maqsood Qureshi said...

LOL Nope! I'm single! Never married!

"But again, I didn't get when will she say so?!"


Maqsood Qureshi said...


It's horrible....cliche!

Jannah said...

Dearest Sara,
Wish me truth too sister, & pray for me.
SubhanAllah, the beautiful tree... isn't hope always there? A tree in a desert.. I loved that. Will keep it in my mind all the time isA.

May Allah strengthen men, and let them LOWER THEIR EYES. Why can't they just simply NOT look! It's almost impossible to some, but easy to those who have asked Allah to help them. They can never do it without Allah's support. Pray for them too!

sara said...

aawwwww :)

Small Blue Thing said...

beautiful picture indeed... :)

And for men, maybe I got already old, or maybe I'm too innocent, the truth is I don't feel challenged by my countrymen's eyes. Furthermore, wish my countryWOMEN would not look when they stare at me with their superiority air of "oh, another poor submitted woman" ;)

In my worst days, it's very rare to me if I felt Allah isn't with me. Where Allah is, Truth is. I barely can afford deeper thoughts nowadays, so it's ok for me like that.

You all are in my _clumsy, delayed, distracted prayers everyday.