Friday, March 30, 2007


I can do it! Yep.. Me.. I can.. Really can.. I am.. Aha.. I actually am.. It’s fun.. Educative..
(picture's source)
Cutely embarrassing ;) Inspiring.. Tiring.. & most importantly for ME..
It’s FOR ME.. It suites ME.. It goes with MY state of being.. It improves MY state of being..

I really am enjoying my new job.. Some don’t really get it.. Or believe I ‘deserve more’.. Can’t explain it really.. I’m not teaching, in a straight line.. But I’m teaching! In my very own ‘saatyyyy’ way of teaching.. Yeah.. I miss kids.. MISS them! I miss their purity.. Their honesty.. And I believe I’ll go back to them God be Willing.. But not now I guess..

One thing about me, I enjoy dealing with people.. Different kinds of them! No really.. It’s so inspiring.. The way they ARE.. The way they react.. The THING that
Mohamed talked about & have felt.. I don’t know if he’s sick of them or what.. I wish he would come back to letting it all out.. The THING.. WOW.. Please come back, will you? Please? There is still khair, you know.. Until the last day.. There is & will be khair.. It’s a matter of patience.. Patience all through out..

The best part is that I am me.. So me that I can’t be more contented.. And thanks to the humane humans I deal with.. And that’s why I took it.. Took this responsibility.. They wanted me for who I am.. And accepted me for who I really am.. Not who they want me to look like.. Or become like.. Or change to be like..

May Allah assist me in fulfilling this duty to my level best.. The very best of ‘saatyyyy’.. Amen. Oh Lamoona, how I miss you! & can’t wait to see li’l zatoona :) Can’t wait! And your mommy.. aaawwwww :) Khalo! our lamoona will be completing 3 years living now.. Jumping around spreading love.. AlhamduliLlah.. MashaAllahu kan wa ma lam yahsa lam yakun :) May Allah protect her.. Amen :)

Oh, isn’t this shot (up) the best?! I’d really like to know what you all feel about every bit of it.. I didn’t take it.. If you click on it, it’ll take you to its photographer whom I fully respect :)

And please pray for me.. :)

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

I was indeed wrong..

".. There is no god but Thou: Glory to Thee: I was indeed wrong!"
~ Qur’an 21:87 ~
Magnificence belongs to You,
& immorality belongs to us..
All forgiving is You,
& cruel, is for all time, us..
I can’t do without You,
Nor can any of us..
But the difference is that some are aware,
& many others believe that it’s a mythic share..
I really don’t know what’s with me & acting like a poet ;) It just hits you! Not the words as some say, but rather the notion.. And after hitting you, it kinda sticks.. & at times fades..

I’ve been pretty occupied with new stuff lately.. And it’s nourishing.. My plea is that You guide me through it all ya Allah..

May The Light of the heavens & the earth guide us all; as in His guidance our only salvation would be found..

Love & pity you li’l cold world :)

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

':.ouR laddeR.:'

It’s so harsh seeing your loved ones being underestimated and taken too lightly ‘cuz of their passport identity.. It’s so difficult seeing them struggle hard and after that all they get is disrespect.. So mean! But you know what? The ladder we’re climbing won’t carry them.. It has no room for them soulless souls..
Prejudice is all over the place.. I’m sick of seeing it.. Tired of feeling it.. Hurt when hearing it.. I’m so sick of it.. But certainly what goes around comes back around.. If not in this life, then unquestionably in the next.. My prayer is that I never become a part of it.. Amen. Amen. Amen.
Oh Allah to You only I turn.. Lift this weight off.. Please lift this weight off.. I know that You won’t burden us beyond our means..
My blind trust is in You ya Allah..
I know my homework is always incomplete, but Your Mercy is all I seek.. It's never enough.. But You Are Allah..
Oh prophets of Allah.. No one will ever carry a heart close to yours.. Never Ever..

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Sunday, March 18, 2007

"Superficial Religion"

You alone we worship
You alone we ask for help
Our anthem to our jobs
Where we sell ourselves

Superficial religion, its all I see
Just another expression of our vanity

For Palestine
We line up the streets
Rawanda Genocide
No one hears a peep

Fatima’s a good girl,
Cuz she puts on her scarf
But if the wind blows too hard
Then her stock will fall

Sufi Islam
Join the newest niche
Designer prayer beads
Marketed for the rich

Islam raised Bilal
It makes everyone equal
Ask a black man
Trying to marry an Arab girl

A talented gardener
His beards in full bloom
But if he meets a struggling farmer
He speaks words of doom
~By Ghazali (Saad Omar)~
WAllahi brother Saad I can't express how well put this was..
May Allah grant you all your wishes that are for His cause.. Amen.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

CoCkRoAcHeS dAy!

One of the scariest words ever..
It stands for a cockroach..
An Arabic word that creeps the hell out of me.. And oh, that has a family history.. Yep..
Mama broke her leg once after seeing one of them li’l creepy things.. So it’s a ‘genetic phobia’ I believe!!
Early this morning, while simply turning towards the monitor, I feel the presence of a big ‘sursaar’.. I roll my eyes trying not to believe my sense, but my sense won & it was a BIIIIIIIIIIIG one.. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :( I literally cried.. Don’t laugh.. It’s spooky.. Tears filled my eyes.. It took me a while trying to get over my goose bumps and come back to normal.. But that wasn’t just about it..
After reaching home safely, sis offers me a lollypop.. I noticed it had an animated grasshopper (or something like it) on it’s wrapping paper.. So I ignore that & open it, trying to enjoy my moment aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand heeeeeeeeeere comes another ‘sorsaar’.. A plastic one with the lollypop; for kids to play with!!
I’ll leave you now to picture the rest..
I know everything is created for a reason & that’s why I always wanted why they were created.. SubhanAllah! Would love to know the wisdom behind their existence..

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

*testing the soil*

There are two ways leading to discovering matters.. 1 is all by yourself.. & 2 is with others.. I’ve been trying to avoid 2 for the past few months.. Why? Well ‘cuz of the lack of everything creative and true, and the presence of all that is superficial! However, lately I’m starting to discover and learn with others.. Through others.. And it’s so genuine and sincere.. Hope I’m seeing it right & hope it stays this way.. And as bro have said earlier, “test the soil”.. It’ll be fruitful God be willing bro :)
Hope the soil turns fertile :)

"We will surely test you through some fear, hunger, and loss of money, lives, and crops. Give good news to the steadfast."
Qur’an [2:155]
"We thus test the people by each other, to let them say (mockingly), "Are these the people among us who are blessed by GOD?" Is GOD not aware of the appreciative ones?"
Qur’an [6:53]
"Our Lord! In You we have placed our trust, and to You do we turn in repentance, for unto You is the end of all journeys."
Qur'an [60:4]
"Our Lord! Perfect our light for us and forgive us our sins, for verily You have power over all things."
Qur'an [66:8]

Sunday, March 11, 2007

To The Other Side..

Yeah I’m getting out there,
& I know it’s not always fair..

It usually & always turns to a deep silent discrepancy,
Just like an eyelash firmly sticking; causing an interal fray..

I’ll try not to be so me,
But I know that it can’t be..

It takes a little piece of your heart,
& a little more of your aggravating smart..

Oh God please help, assist & guide me,
For without You there would be no real see..

Monday, March 05, 2007

SeNsE oF bAlAnCe..

Wish I could ride a bike right now,
But I’m too woman for that..

It’s not about being unable,
It’s way, way far from that..

It’s to do with courtesy & belongingness,
To a gender that fell apart just like that..

Thank you daddy for giving me the sense of balance..
Can’t wait to get in your arms tomorrow,
& kiss your very own hands..
God be Willing :)

Sunday, March 04, 2007

It's a death row pardon two minutes too late..

And isn't it ironic... don't you think?
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures
Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

Saturday, March 03, 2007

I could eat him alive :)

..i'm just a li'l star..

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
If it seems like I'm shining
It's probably a reflection of something you already are
I forget about myself sometime
When there's so many others around
When deep inside you feels darkest
That is where I can always be found
That is where I can always be found
That is where I can always be found
There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
If you try to reach out and touch me
you'll see that I'm not really that far
I may not be the brightest nor am I the last one you’ll see
But as long as you notice, that’s just fine with me
Everything’s just fine with me
Everything’s just fine with me
There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
I’ve been running and jumping, but barely
Getting, getting over the bar
I plan on being much more than I, am but that's in due time
But until then I'm guilty, and being human’s my crime
Just being human that is my crime
Being human that is my crime
~Kelis - Lil Star Lyrics~