(Earlier today in school)
me (while almost throwing up): "Mrs. J, that classroom's smell is unbearable, you gotta do something about that carpet! And......"
Mrs. J (in a serious way): "Sara!"
Mrs. J: "YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!"
me: "awwwwwwwww, thanks! But......"
Mrs. J: "I mean it! YOU ARE ACTUALLY SO BEAUTIFUL!"
(Later on today, in the mall)
me: "Do you have this cardigan in other sizes, like do you guys have a store here or something? Could you please check for me?"
shop girl: "You look so beautiful ma'am!"
me: "Awwwwww, thanks.."
shop girl: "No, really, you do!"
I mean!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What? It's all God's creation, & alhamdulilLah for granting me all I have, I'm not a part of it whatsoever, but this is not what I mean to bring up here.. All I want to discuss here is the "eye" that people see each other with! I wasn't 'dressed up', feeling happy, or acting sweet! Mrs. J has been seeing me almost 5 days weekly since last September & never said anything personal to me, it has always been so formal between us! And that shop girl! Well, I was sooooooooooooooooo worn out & didn't want to go shopping AT ALL in the first place! How do people see one another, I wonder! I mean, really? I see people looking bright when their heart 'feels' clear to me.. Or their inner peace is flowing from their inside out! I have been sooooooo stressed out lately with all the pressures that have been surrounding me! How did I look beautiful to them today?! I don't think that people actually SEE each other anymore! I think everyone sees what they want to see & that's all! I think that no one bothers looking, really LOOKING anymore.. My problem is that I actually do LOOK! Again, I wish I didn't feel too much! It would have been waaaaaay easier for me!