With every passing wind and flying bird I find roads within myself that I’ve never taken before.. For the past couple of months I felt so lost and was so longing to something that I never knew the name to.. Longing to a feeling that I’ve never felt before.. Longing to a bliss that’d be too much for me to take.. Longing for a state so high that’s never been heard of.. And I slept.. I slept and dreamt.. And with those dreams my loneliness grew larger.. Larger than one can take.. You see when you live a life different than the one you’re dreaming of, your pains will grow louder, that your ears would hurt.. And that noise telling you to come down to earth and not to look up is so frightening.. However, I looked up and prayed.. And when praying, one might be unsure, but I was sure, not of me, but of Him, your Master & mine.. Your Giver.. The Most Giving.. The Highest of all.. I was, am and always will be sure of His nearness.. He’s so close, close that you might not feel the evil of your very self because of His Protection; a Protection that saves you from your own self..
And……… And…………… Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand my prayers were answered! My prayers, MINE! Small li’l me! God Heard my prayers & Answered them.. And Gave me so much more than I’ve ever dreamt of.. Now I see everything around me with a smile that comes from the small happy heart of mine.. Ya Allah, it just feels so right.. It feels so good.. It feels fresh and new yet as familiar as the back of my own hands.. It’s too strong yet too smooth.. Too fast, yet stopped all my tick tacks.. It melted my heart and reshaped it into a bigger one carrying so much more dreams and wishes filled with overwhelming love that exceeds all limits known to man.. It gave me big fluffy wings and carried me to a place that no one has found yet.. A cozy place created just for me to fly through while being protected from all harm, God Be Willing.. I feel safe, found, seen, clear, complete, light, sheltered and loved.. Above all, I am so thankful, that it hurts inside.. T H A N K F U L to the power of infinity.. I wish I can share my emotions with all mankind.. I wish I can let everyone taste this.. I wish I’d give my heart out and let y’all know that when love is divided, it grows & never goes less..It’s multiplied.. If you just let yourself be.. Be what you gotta be while being satisfied with whatever comes your way.. And give.. Give with all your heart and you shall never lose.. You only lose when you look for what you don’t have.. Guys, we have so many things that we can’t see.. Our souls, hearts, minds & bodies should always serve a purpose that’s higher than all tangible things.. It’s the worst mistake ever looking “outside”, we should look “inside”, it’s a wonderland in here guys.. Like he said: “It’s like looking through that tiny needle’s hole” :) It’s so tiny, but then looking through it; you’d see so many things you never thought you’d see through this insignificant hole..
You are my wonderland..
Thank you for finding me..
And thanks for being the one..
B L E S S ~ Y O U R ~ H E A R T <3
"Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking 'round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies
And it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feelin' like I'm never gonna come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out, everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I'll say why don't you and I get together
And take on the world, be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other, fly to the moon
And straight on to heaven
‘Cuz without you they're never gonna let me in"
~ Santana ~