Sunday, August 02, 2009

when i becomes US <3

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With every passing wind and flying bird I find roads within myself that I’ve never taken before.. For the past couple of months I felt so lost and was so longing to something that I never knew the name to.. Longing to a feeling that I’ve never felt before.. Longing to a bliss that’d be too much for me to take.. Longing for a state so high that’s never been heard of.. And I slept.. I slept and dreamt.. And with those dreams my loneliness grew larger.. Larger than one can take.. You see when you live a life different than the one you’re dreaming of, your pains will grow louder, that your ears would hurt.. And that noise telling you to come down to earth and not to look up is so frightening.. However, I looked up and prayed.. And when praying, one might be unsure, but I was sure, not of me, but of Him, your Master & mine.. Your Giver.. The Most Giving.. The Highest of all.. I was, am and always will be sure of His nearness.. He’s so close, close that you might not feel the evil of your very self because of His Protection; a Protection that saves you from your own self..

And……… And…………… Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand my prayers were answered! My prayers, MINE! Small li’l me! God Heard my prayers & Answered them.. And Gave me so much more than I’ve ever dreamt of.. Now I see everything around me with a smile that comes from the small happy heart of mine.. Ya Allah, it just feels so right.. It feels so good.. It feels fresh and new yet as familiar as the back of my own hands.. It’s too strong yet too smooth.. Too fast, yet stopped all my tick tacks.. It melted my heart and reshaped it into a bigger one carrying so much more dreams and wishes filled with overwhelming love that exceeds all limits known to man.. It gave me big fluffy wings and carried me to a place that no one has found yet.. A cozy place created just for me to fly through while being protected from all harm, God Be Willing.. I feel safe, found, seen, clear, complete, light, sheltered and loved.. Above all, I am so thankful, that it hurts inside.. T H A N K F U L to the power of infinity.. I wish I can share my emotions with all mankind.. I wish I can let everyone taste this.. I wish I’d give my heart out and let y’all know that when love is divided, it grows & never goes less..It’s multiplied.. If you just let yourself be.. Be what you gotta be while being satisfied with whatever comes your way.. And give.. Give with all your heart and you shall never lose.. You only lose when you look for what you don’t have.. Guys, we have so many things that we can’t see.. Our souls, hearts, minds & bodies should always serve a purpose that’s higher than all tangible things.. It’s the worst mistake ever looking “outside”, we should look “inside”, it’s a wonderland in here guys.. Like he said: “It’s like looking through that tiny needle’s hole” :) It’s so tiny, but then looking through it; you’d see so many things you never thought you’d see through this insignificant hole..

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You are my wonderland..

Thank you for finding me..

And thanks for being the one..

B L E S S ~ Y O U R ~ H E A R T <3

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"Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking 'round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies
And it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feelin' like I'm never gonna come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out, everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I'll say why don't you and I get together
And take on the world, be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other, fly to the moon
And straight on to heaven
‘Cuz without you they're never gonna let me in"

~ Santana ~

14 comments:

The Extravagate said...

I cant help but smile while reading ur blog,, u’ve got a sweet nice way in describing ur thoughts mashalla ^_^ i wish i had that

sara said...

Thanks a million miss :)
It's not hard writing, it just needs a li'l looking into one's self and it'll all come out easily.. Everyone has a different experience, yet, our hearts are having so much in common.. Listen to your heart, and it'll set you free :)

abeer said...

sarsora,

i missed you a lot where are u now, back to uae or still in Egypt call your old friend

sara said...

Aboory,
BIGAD it's always great hearing your voice :D I love you so much ya umm Nada <3

Small Blue Thing said...

Masshallah! You sound so happy :)

sara said...

Dearest :)

Happy ain't exactly how I feel.. It feels so real and so true! It feels so beautiful.. It feels right..

It feels like this right now:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4A7OiiQB77U&feature=related

maroo said...

omg .. u know what wallahe i am about 2 cry .. gr8 description mixed with honest feelings :)
ALLA yhneeke o ys3dek dayman ,,,
gr8 title by the way :)

sara said...

Marooooooooooooooooo :D

OMG, loooooooooooong time :) It's a small piece of how I feel Maroo.. I'm sure you know what I'm talkin about ;)

Ameen to your prayer & for us all :)

Thanks for passing by baby girl (f)



p.s. I hope you had a nice time teaching last year & the upcoming year would be better carrying more nice surprises for you :D

Huda Hassan said...

Asalam alaykum! !!!! WERE ARE YOU NOW !? how aare you ? checking your blog to see if your still laive ! i tried calling you! I emailed you! with no reply from you ?!doyou not care about me anymore ( waha waaaah wah)

sara said...

alaiky assalam wa rahmatu Allahy wa barakatuHu,

Hudeeeeeeeeeeeees, HEEEEEEEEEY :D
Still breathin miss :)
Sorry about not replyin, i read it too late :(

Love you so much and ur lil munchkin.. I'll give u a call as soon as i can, hope everything is great sweetie (f)

JASMINA said...

Assalamu alaikum Saretta :),

I am so glad that you feel much better.Your post was so nice and full of hope.It is strange how sometime we are scared to open the door that leads us to our most inner and intimate world.Yet,as you said this world could be so beautiful.
Saretta,but there is one thing I have to ask you,because as always your posts are for me not only enjoyment,but they also trick me a little bit :).Is this US maybe also meaning that you have a fiance'? =),I had to ask,you know I had :)!
I so wish you all the best and I always carry you dancing in my heart and thoughts.
Smooch :)!

sara said...

Jasminaaaaaaa/Natashaaaaaaa :)

You know, it's amazing how you get me every time I talk here.. If the whole world didn't understand & only one soul did, that'd be more than enough for me :D

I'm so glad to see you here after so long :) I hope your problems are less now and your joy overtakes your fears :)

As for opening the door, I've always left it half way open, scared of opening it and sinking.. But, I openend it Natasha, and it was a heartfelt decision :)

And yessssssss, your guess is RIGHT ;)

Thanks for your sweet wishes, and I too carry you in my heart and thoughts always, and always wish you the very best :D

*bighug*

Restful Rain said...

This is Love...
A gift wrapped by Allah to his loved ones :)

sara said...

You don't know how Habeeeeeby is Allah <3

HamduliLlah :)